Tuesday, January 31, 2017

Waiting on Wednesday #37

The Ship Beyond Time by Heidi Heilig

The Ship Beyond Time (The Girl From Everywhere, #2)
February 28th 2017

Synopsis: The breathtaking sequel to the acclaimed The Girl from Everywhere. Nix has escaped her past, but when the person she loves most is at risk, even the daughter of a time traveler may not be able to outrun her fate—no matter where she goes. Fans of Rae Carson, Alexandra Bracken, and Outlander will fall hard for Heidi Heilig’s sweeping fantasy.

Nix has spent her whole life journeying to places both real and imagined aboard her time-traveling father’s ship. And now it’s finally time for her to take the helm. Her father has given up his obsession to save her mother—and possibly erase Nix’s existence—and Nix’s future lies bright before her. Until she learns that she is destined to lose the one she loves. But her relationship with Kash—best friend, thief, charmer extraordinaire—is only just beginning. How can she bear to lose him? How can she bear to become as adrift and alone as her father?

Desperate to change her fate, Nix takes her crew to a mythical utopia to meet another Navigator who promises to teach her how to manipulate time. But everything in this utopia is constantly changing, and nothing is what it seems—not even her relationship with Kash. Nix must grapple with whether anyone can escape her destiny, her history, her choices. Heidi Heilig weaves fantasy, history, and romance together to tackle questions of free will, fate, and what it means to love another person. But at the center of this adventure are the extraordinary, multifaceted, and multicultural characters that leap off the page, and an intricate, recognizable world that has no bounds. The sequel—and conclusion—to the indie darling The Girl from Everywhere will be devoured by fans of Rachel Hartman and Maggie Stiefvater. Includes black-and-white maps.
 

Why I'm excited:

1. I love Heidi Heilig and I want to support everything she does, because she is a must needed advocate in the YA world today.

2. I LOVED The Girl From Everywhere! I thought it was thrilling, the romance was perfect, and Nix was such a Badass. I cannot wait to see where this story goes!

3. THAT COVER. It's glorious. I love the swoopiness. I love our lovely ship!

4. Time travel!!! I love how intricate the time travel is in this series!!!!

5. I mean, cmon, it's gonna be great!!!

6. I've also heard that the opening lines are killer! SO READY

Monday, January 30, 2017

COVER REVEAL: 27 Hours by Tristina Wright!


When I saw a sign-up form to help reveal the cover for 27 HOURS by Tristina Wright I jumped on that shit so damn fast. I have been looking forward to this novel for SO LONG. I feel like I've known about it for as long as it's been around. And my god, am I excited. It's BEAUTIFUL YOU GUYS.

And without further ado,

I present to you

The cover for this beautiful and oh so queer novel!


Hot damn. These colors are BREATHTAKING. This cover is one of my favorites of all time. I am in LOVE, aren't you? :)

So ready for #queerteensinspace 

Will October 3rd get here soon enough?


Title: 27 Hours (The Nightside Saga. #1)
Author: Tristina Wright
Release Date: October 3, 2017

Book Description: 
Rumor Mora fears two things: hellhounds too strong for him to kill, and failure. Jude Welton has two dreams: for humans to stop killing monsters, and for his strange abilities to vanish.
But in no reality should a boy raised to love monsters fall for a boy raised to kill them.
Nyx Llorca keeps two secrets: the moon speaks to her, and she’s in love with Dahlia, her best friend. Braeden Tennant wants two things: to get out from his mother's shadow, and to unlearn Epsilon's darkest secret.
They’ll both have to commit treason to find the truth.
During one twenty-seven-hour night, if they can’t stop the war between the colonies and the monsters from becoming a war of extinction, the things they wish for will never come true, and the things they fear will be all that’s left.

Book Riot Official Reveal: http://bit.ly/2jKmUKg

Author Bio:
Tristina Wright is a blue-haired bisexual with anxiety and opinions. She’s also possibly a mermaid, but no one can get confirmation. She fell in love with science fiction and fantasy at a young age and frequently got caught writing in class instead of paying attention. She enjoys worlds with monsters and kissing and monsters kissing. She married a nerd who can build computers and make the sun shine with his smile. Most days, she can be found drinking coffee from her favorite chipped mug and making up more stories for her wombfruit, who keep life exciting and unpredictable.
Still trying to figure out the mermaid thing.

Snapchat: @tristinawright

Wednesday, January 25, 2017

Waiting on Wednesday #36


The Upside of Unrequited

April 11th 2017
<3

I LOVE THIS BOOK.
I have already had the EXTREME PLEASURE of devouring it and I just can't you guys. Becky is the BEST. In every way.



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Monday, January 23, 2017

Commenting: A Goal

Dear Readers.

Dear Random-People-Who-Stumbled-Upon-My-Blog

Dear Anyone who is reading this.

Dear anyone who will read this in the future,

I have a goal this year,

and that is to comment on more blogs

I would love some more blogs to follow and comment on.

Send me your links?

Thank you!!!!

Cody Roecker

Friday, January 20, 2017

Vulnerability: Hopefully A Message for Hope

I struggle.

I struggle with feeling unwanted.

I struggle with loving myself, because it's so damned difficult all of the freaking time.

I'm not a very happy person, yet I try so hard to maintain a brave face.

I find it so hard to have fun, because I have to be so careful... I often feel as if I'm going to get hurt if I'm too loud, too quiet, too passionate, to detached. I have to constantly work to be in some middle ground attempting to be accepted ,to be liked. I am the worst of people-pleasers. And every day it's difficult for me to get ready for my day... but I remember I have people counting on me. I have people that tell me I brighten their day. That my shining smile makes their day improve tenfold, and it makes me want to get out of bed, and face the day head on.

The worst thing someone can say to me is "You need to calm down." when I'm talking about something I'm passionate about. Whether it be books, or books, or more books, or the occasional Netflix show or whatever I am passionate about at that time. Maybe those people don't realize they feed into my self-doubt so much so that I have to reevaluate if this is really worth it. If showing my passion is something worth the strange looks. [Of course it damn is] but when your passions are diminished it is painful. It is dreadful. It's the feeling of being unwanted, and that the things you care about aren't worth caring about.... And that hurts.

So everyday, I work harder to find happiness in the little things I experience in every day life, and even though I struggle... most days I do find something.

Last night, I was in a rough moment in time, that was completely a misunderstanding, but that doesn't diminish the pain that was felt because of that.

But today, I have a new flame lit underneath my ass, to take today by storm, just like I'll eventually take the world by storm. [and yes, wise one, I'm definitely referencing Lukas Graham right now] But today of all days, a day I thought I would feel completely hopeless, I just want to prove to myself that I can and will make it through. I have stories to write, and people to love.

I know that my feelings are real.

I want you all to know that no matter how you feel, how you are feeling towards whatever situation is arising at this very moment [whether it be more personal, or fear for this election, which I am feeling wholeheartedly.] I want you to know that it is real. And that it's okay you are feeling this way. [I wish we didn't have to]

If we stand together, imagine the power we could have. Imagine what we could do, what we could get through.

I love you.

I'm here to hold  your hand. To give you hug. To call out your bullshit. To love you wholeheartedly. To smile, and laugh, and be friends.

Together, we can get through anything.

I believe in us.

We got this.

So today, as we struggle to make it through the day... remember that together, we can do this. Somehow, someway, we will.

Let's do this.


Well, I'm writing.

So, I'm one of those people that is lucky to write maybe 250-500 words a day, if I even write at all. So, when I talk about goals it probably won't be in word count. I might have an idea of where I would like to be, but most likely I will reach something with scenes.

As of now, I have about 15 chapters outlined of a project I'm working on.

My goal for January is to have 3 of those chapters drafted. If I can do more than that, great! But my goal is 3 of the chapters.

I'm really enjoying what I'm writing so far, though I think it's missing some sort of spark. But I think I'll find it.

I would like to have 10000+ words in the novel by the end of January, but I'm not even sure what I have right now to be honest. When I'm drafting this post (January 12th) I have somewhere between 1500-2000 words, but that's totally an estimate. My outline is 3200 words long, so at least there's that.

I really love this story, and I'm excited to see where it takes me. Starting in February I'm going to be doing a little update on my writing. A series entitled:

Cody Writes A Novel!

And each week I'll keep you updated on an estimated word count, my goals for that week (how much I want to write... whether it be scene wise or chapter wise. ) and maybe a line or two from that weeks writing.

I hope y'all are interested in this because I sure do love to write.

Thank you for listening... Love you all,

Cody Roecker

Wednesday, January 18, 2017

Waiting on Wednesday #35


Blood Rose Rebellion
March 28th 2017

Synopsis: The thrilling first book in a YA fantasy trilogy for fans of Red Queen. In a world where social prestige derives from a trifecta of blood, money, and magic, one girl has the ability to break the spell that holds the social order in place.

Sixteen-year-old Anna Arden is barred from society by a defect of blood. Though her family is part of the Luminate, powerful users of magic, she is Barren, unable to perform the simplest spells. Anna would do anything to belong. But her fate takes another course when, after inadvertently breaking her sister’s debutante spell—an important chance for a highborn young woman to show her prowess with magic—Anna finds herself exiled to her family’s once powerful but now crumbling native Hungary.

Her life might well be over.

In Hungary, Anna discovers that nothing is quite as it seems. Not the people around her, from her aloof cousin Noémi to the fierce and handsome Romani Gábor. Not the society she’s known all her life, for discontent with the Luminate is sweeping the land. And not her lack of magic. Isolated from the only world she cares about, Anna still can’t seem to stop herself from breaking spells.

As rebellion spreads across the region, Anna’s unique ability becomes the catalyst everyone is seeking. In the company of nobles, revolutionaries, and Romanies, Anna must choose: deny her unique power and cling to the life she’s always wanted, or embrace her ability and change that world forever.



I mean, this sounds just super duper cool and I'm so freaking excited for it!!!!!!



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Tuesday, January 17, 2017

HISTORY IS ALL YOU LEFT ME IS IN THE WORLD YOU GUYS

As a self proclaimed #Beckminavidera fanatic, I have a book y'all need to read...

and it's none other than Adam Silvera's sophomore novel HISTORY IS ALL YOU LEFT ME which releases...

TODAY. I repeat, TODAY, 1/17/17

This novel is filled with so many things

It is an exploration of grief

It is about first loves

It is about loss

It is about learning to overcome hardships

It is about friendship

It is about human connection.

It is ultimately a portrait of grief and what in can do to a person.

It will make you cry.

It will make you laugh.

It will make you want to throw the book.

It will evoke empathy.

And sympathy

You will care about these characters,

and their lives will change yours.

Adam Silvera writes with a power not possessed by many. The power to move you in a way that changes, not only who you are for a little while, but for eternity after. Griffin's situation may not be relatable to all, but the way Silvera writes makes you feel as if you have experienced this, even if you haven't.

SO BUY THIS BOOK

History Is All You Left Me


When Griffin’s first love and ex-boyfriend, Theo, dies in a drowning accident, his universe implodes. Even though Theo had moved to California for college and started seeing Jackson, Griffin never doubted Theo would come back to him when the time was right. But now, the future he’s been imagining for himself has gone far off course.

To make things worse, the only person who truly understands his heartache is Jackson. But no matter how much they open up to each other, Griffin’s downward spiral continues. He’s losing himself in his obsessive compulsions and destructive choices, and the secrets he’s been keeping are tearing him apart.

If Griffin is ever to rebuild his future, he must first confront his history, every last heartbreaking piece in the puzzle of his life.
 

Monday, January 16, 2017

An Ode to Molasses

Well, I felt like writing and used Molasses to inspire three pretty different things:

I hope you enjoy them:


Everything was dark, sticky, and slowed me down. I struggled to move forward, but I pressed on despite the hardship I was facing. Covered. I was covered in thick brown goo, that reminded me of something I used to eat when I was a child... but I couldn't quite place it. At least, not yet. But I continued swimming through it, moving slowly yet carefully, making each step count. Sweat dripped off of my body, landing in the unfortunate mess I had to move through. I can do this I thought. Moving like this depleted my energy but I had to continue. I had to make it through. I had to overcome this hurdle, I needed to break out of this molasses-covered journey I was on. Even if for a moment. So I could escape this drowning feeling that filled me to the brim. I needed to so my tears would dry. I needed to so I could feel clean. So I could finally feel peace once again.

Mary told me that I needed to be stronger and that I needed to be more
Observant. She said I needed to pay attention to the quarrels of
Lovers because I had no lover of myself and to her, I needed one to
Ascend into happily ever after. And so I went out and
Searched for sweet love, something that could bring me
Some sense of serenity. However, I found it within myself to
Enjoy the life I had even if I couldn't find that  love. That realization led me to a
Stairway to a place where I felt the love of a thousand suns splash onto my skin. And it was beautiful.

Sickeningly sweet with serendipity it sings
Every echo of the elegant eagle's wings
She saw sinister strings in said song
Swinging into sweltering sorrow
Allison's anger ate away at
Laziness and longing that lead
O'er the orchards of oranges
Moving meticulously through the moor, making the music more melodic.

Friday, January 13, 2017

A List of Cages by Robin Roe

A List of Cages

Title: A List of Cages
Author: Robin Roe
Release Date: January 10th, 2017
Publisher: Disney-Hyperion
Page Count: 320
Rating: Utterly heartbreaking, yet somehow hopeful. (4 stars, if I had to use stars)
Source: Netgalley :)
Synopsis: When Adam Blake lands the best elective ever in his senior year, serving as an aide to the school psychologist, he thinks he's got it made. Sure, it means a lot of sitting around, which isn't easy for a guy with ADHD, but he can't complain, since he gets to spend the period texting all his friends. Then the doctor asks him to track down the troubled freshman who keeps dodging her, and Adam discovers that the boy is Julian--the foster brother he hasn't seen in five years.

Adam is ecstatic to be reunited. At first, Julian seems like the boy he once knew. He's still kind hearted. He still writes stories and loves picture books meant for little kids. But as they spend more time together, Adam realizes that Julian is keeping secrets, like where he hides during the middle of the day, and what's really going on inside his house. Adam is determined to help him, but his involvement could cost both boys their lives.
 

Review:

"Hate ricochets, but kindness does too."

I read this book late at night before bed, and honestly believe this was the best time for me to read this novel. Because it allowed me to be completely immersed in the story, in the characters, in the everything about this book.

This book pulled at all of my heart strings, and held them taut throughout most of the novel. Seriously. I was anxious about the outcome of everything that was going on. I mostly went into this book blind, which I think is also a good way to go into it. The synopsis isn't spoilery, but it does make it easier to figure out what's going on.

Adam and Julian's voices were just wrenching and raw. I loved the childlike quality in Julian's voice, and how he sounded younger (because he was). And Adam's level-headedness was very much appreciated and offered a nice contrast between the characters voices and outlook on life. I really enjoyed being in both Julian and Adam's heads but think I preferred Julian's ever so slightly. This is mostly because Julian's voice was more compelling and I just cared about him more.

This book takes you on a emotional ride through dark experiences but leaves you in a hopeful meadow. Dealing with difficult things, A LIST OF CAGES really shows the importance of friendship, of love, of hope.

It shows how Adam deals with ADHD, but doesn't delve much into it. It definitely talks about it, but it isn't the central focus so it is slightly glossed over. Which, I am actually okay with, because this story is more than about Adam's mental disorder. This story is very much about Julian and his life and how that impacts everyone around him

But it's also completely about Adam and his impact on everyone around him.

This book is really difficult to read, and that has nothing to do with the writing (which is simply really good and easy to read), and everything to do with the subject matter. This book deals with abuse, and it's powerful and killer in it's unapologetic way it deals with this subject, and does so with such careful writing.

This is a book about impacts. how the little things can change someone's life forever.

I loved Adam and Julian's brotherly relationship. It was so strong and so apparent. The boys clearly cared about each other immensely.

I also love how Roe dealt with the themes of friendship, with Adam and his friends and how they grow to love Julian just as Adam does. I especially loved Charlie, who really grew throughout the novel. I also feel like Adam's withdrawal from friends at different points felt entirely realistic, and I just adore the message this book sends.

Utterly hopeful, Robin Roe's debut sings with deep undertones, important messages, and veryintentive writing making this debut shine out amongst the rest.

Highly recommend.


Wednesday, January 11, 2017

Waiting on Wednesday #34

Long May She Reign


February 21st 2017

The Girl of Fire and Thorns meets The Queen of the Tearling in this thrilling fantasy standalone about one girl’s unexpected rise to power.

Freya was never meant be queen. Twenty third in line to the throne, she never dreamed of a life in the palace, and would much rather research in her laboratory than participate in the intrigues of court. However, when an extravagant banquet turns deadly and the king and those closest to him are poisoned, Freya suddenly finds herself on the throne.

Freya may have escaped the massacre, but she is far from safe. The nobles don’t respect her, her councillors want to control her, and with the mystery of who killed the king still unsolved, Freya knows that a single mistake could cost her the kingdom – and her life.

Freya is determined to survive, and that means uncovering the murderers herself. Until then, she can’t trust anyone. Not her advisors. Not the king’s dashing and enigmatic illegitimate son. Not even her own father, who always wanted the best for her, but also wanted more power for himself.

As Freya’s enemies close in and her loyalties are tested, she must decide if she is ready to rule and, if so, how far she is willing to go to keep the crown.
 

My initial thoughts will forever stand: I laughed so hard when I initially read this synopsis because like, how in the world do 23 people die in order for her to become queen? LOLOLOL

Anyways, I am super excited and I have never read anything by this author but I am very excited to make this my first!
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Tuesday, January 10, 2017

Snow (not really a poem)

Snow
Please go
I beg of you
For I have things to do
And places to be
and people to see

Namely Alex Bracken
and Susan Dennard

I have dreamed of this moment
for months now
And I'm going to meet them
even if I drown in the snow

Please, dear snow
melt a little
just enough so I can drive

Please
Please
Please
Please
Please

This "poem" is rough
But I don't care

I just want the snow gone.
Seriously.

I just want to meet them.


- An obsessive adoring reader who doesn't have time to deal with this shit.

:)

Monday, January 9, 2017

Resolutions (of a sort)

Hey y'all,

As I already said in a previous post... I am wanting to focus more on writing this year, rather than reading. So far... it's going alright. I have some ideas spinning but the hardest part (so far) is deciding whether I want to write this story in third person or first person because oftentimes I want to do a little of both. As I continue writing this story, I'm thinking I'll do weekly updates on how I'm doing. Where I am at (wordcount wise/decisions wise) I hope y'all are interested in that because here are a few of my goals for this upcoming year:

1. Starting next week, post a recap on my writing each week, maybe a one liner, where I am wordcount wise. Where I'd like to be each week, to meet my goals.

2. Read 52 books this year. (Honestly, this shouldn't be a problem as I have easily surpassed this in years past.

3. I want to venture into beta reading, soon. So, I'm going to look into that.

4. As last year, I'd like to post once a week, if feasible at all... but I'd much prefer twice a week, even if it's short little updates such as these. What do you think about that?

5. I want at least one of you to keep me accountable on some of these things... but most importantly WRITING MY BOOK. (Eventually I'll be able to tell you a little bit about it, but I'm holding off due to as soon as I talk about it, I find it harder to write it.)

I'll probably add some more "Resolutions" as time goes on throughout the year and I really find what I want to do with 2017.

All the love,

Cody Roecker

Saturday, January 7, 2017

Top 16 Books of 2016: A post filled with the indecisive ramblings of myself

Before I begin, I would like to thank the author's below for their amazing novels and the wonderful words and worlds held inside of them. Thank you for changing my life for the better and making me believe that their is still good in the world, after all the terrible shit lately. You give me hope. And I will never forget that. I hope someday to repay you just a little. Hopefully. Again, Thank You So Much...

Without further ado...

In no particular order...

Here are my FAVORITE BOOKS OF 2016

(Which took me entirely too long to narrow down.)


The Star-Touched Queen by Roshani Chokshi 2016
The Star-Touched Queen (The Star-Touched Queen, #1)
Synopsis: Fate and fortune. Power and passion. What does it take to be the queen of a kingdom when you’re only seventeen?

Maya is cursed. With a horoscope that promises a marriage of death and destruction, she has earned only the scorn and fear of her father’s kingdom. Content to follow more scholarly pursuits, her whole world is torn apart when her father, the Raja, arranges a wedding of political convenience to quell outside rebellions. Soon Maya becomes the queen of Akaran and wife of Amar. Neither roles are what she expected: As Akaran’s queen, she finds her voice and power. As Amar’s wife, she finds something else entirely: Compassion. Protection. Desire…

But Akaran has its own secrets—thousands of locked doors, gardens of glass, and a tree that bears memories instead of fruit. Soon, Maya suspects her life is in danger. Yet who, besides her husband, can she trust? With the fate of the human and Otherworldly realms hanging in the balance, Maya must unravel an ancient mystery that spans reincarnated lives to save those she loves the most…including herself.

Why it's on my list: Simple, really. This lyrical novel that has a Hades/Persephone Retelling vibe to it features not only one of the most swoonworthy romances in the YA game today, but memorable characters. This is a kind of story that sweeps you up entirely, and you never want to leave.


When the Moon Was Ours by Anna-Marie Mclemore 2016
When the Moon Was Ours
Synopsis: To everyone who knows them, best friends Miel and Sam are as strange as they are inseparable. Roses grow out of Miel’s wrist, and rumors say that she spilled out of a water tower when she was five. Sam is known for the moons he paints and hangs in the trees, and for how little anyone knows about his life before he and his mother moved to town. But as odd as everyone considers Miel and Sam, even they stay away from the Bonner girls, four beautiful sisters rumored to be witches. Now they want the roses that grow from Miel’s skin, convinced that their scent can make anyone fall in love. And they’re willing to use every secret Miel has fought to protect to make sure she gives them up. 

Why it's on my list: This is my top book of the year. One of the only one's I am sure about it's placing. Not only is this novel my favorite magical realism novel, it's one of my favorite stories of all time. Learning about Sam and Miel opened my world up to so many things. This novel is lyrical and beautiful and simply elegant. The words flow together seamlessly. Mclemore crafted a story of heartache and heartbreak, and captures the moment of falling in love for the first time. Also, cover lust af. I honestly have trouble expressing how absolutely haunting this novel is. Such an important novel at that. A beautiful love story worthy of the world. This is the book I want everyone to read if they were to only read one book in the upcoming year. This one, you guys. Please don't miss it.

Kids of Appetite by David Arnold 2016
Kids of Appetite
Synopsis: The bestselling author of Mosquitoland brings us another batch of unforgettable characters in this tragicomedy about first love and devastating loss.

Victor Benucci and Madeline Falco have a story to tell.
It begins with the death of Vic’s father.
It ends with the murder of Mad’s uncle.
The Hackensack Police Department would very much like to hear it.
But in order to tell their story, Vic and Mad must focus on all the chapters in between.

This is a story about:

1. A coded mission to scatter ashes across New Jersey.
2. The momentous nature of the Palisades in winter.
3. One dormant submarine.
4. Two songs about flowers.
5. Being cool in the traditional sense.
6. Sunsets & ice cream & orchards & graveyards.
7. Simultaneous extreme opposites.
8. A narrow escape from a war-torn country.
9. A story collector.
10. How to listen to someone who does not talk.
11. Falling in love with a painting.
12. Falling in love with a song.
13. Falling in love.

Why it's on my list: An unforgettable cast of characters, a keep-you-on-the-edge of your seat premise and quirky dialogue are just the beginning of this phenomenal novel by none other than David Arnold, author of Mosquitoland. Kids of Appetite is just a wonderful bundle of, exactly-my-type of book. And I'd be doing you a disservice if I didn't tell you to read it. Also: One of the main characters, Vic has Moebius Syndrome, making it so his face is basically paralyzed. And honestly, this made me love the book even more. Carefully researched, and so important to the novel. I love this book. (and all of these books)


Six of Crows by Leigh Bardugo 2015
Six of Crows (Six of Crows, #1)
Synopsis: Ketterdam: a bustling hub of international trade where anything can be had for the right price—and no one knows that better than criminal prodigy Kaz Brekker. Kaz is offered a chance at a deadly heist that could make him rich beyond his wildest dreams. But he can't pull it off alone...

A convict with a thirst for revenge
A sharpshooter who can't walk away from a wager
A runaway with a privileged past
A spy known as the Wraith
A Heartrender using her magic to survive the slums
A thief with a gift for unlikely escapes


Kaz's crew are the only ones who might stand between the world and destruction—if they don't kill each other first.

Why it's on my list: Well, I loved this book so much that I read it twice in 2016. It's that good you guys. This book has my favorite characters like ever. I honestly don't want to tell you anything about them because I'm afraid to spoil something. But basically, they are all phenomenal. (But especially Wylan. And Jesper. And Matthias. And Inej. And Nina. And Kaz. So, all of them) Super dangerous heist for lots of money goes awry, and holy shit. IT'S THAT GOOD YOU GUYS. Yay for antiheroes!

A Darker Shade of Magic/A Gathering of Shadows by V E Schwab 2015/2016
A Darker Shade of Magic (Shades of Magic, #1)A Gathering of Shadows (Shades of Magic, #2)
Synopsis: Kell is one of the last travelers--magicians with a rare, coveted ability to travel between parallel universes connected by one magical city.

There's Grey London, dirty and boring, without any magic, and with one mad King--George III. Red London, where life and magic are revered--and where Kell was raised alongside Rhy Maresh, the roguish heir to a flourishing empire. White London--a place where people fight to control magic and the magic fights back, draining the city to its very bones. And once upon a time, there was Black London. But no one speaks of that now.

Officially, Kell is the Red traveler, ambassador of the Maresh empire, carrying the monthly correspondences between the royals of each London. Unofficially, Kell is a smuggler, servicing people willing to pay for even the smallest glimpses of a world they'll never see. It's a defiant hobby with dangerous consequences, which Kell is now seeing firsthand.

Fleeing into Grey London, Kell runs into Delilah Bard, a cut-purse with lofty aspirations. She robs him, saves him from a deadly enemy, and finally forces Kell to spirit her to another world for a proper adventure.

Now perilous magic is afoot, and treachery lurks at every turn. To save all of the worlds, they'll first need to stay alive.
 

Why it's on this list: Because Victoria Schwab is a writing goddess. That is all. Just kidding. It's because this world is simply the most intriguing and well built world I've read about in years. Kell is a hardass, lovable, hardass. Yes, I said hardass twice. Lila is badass as can be. And my god, don't get me started about her. Or Kell. Or Rhy. Or people we meet in the second novel. But like, read this book you guys. I wrote a review on it, and that goes into more detail of how I really feel. I have a feeling everyone can and will love this book.


The Rose and the Dagger by Renee Ahdieh 2016
The Rose & the Dagger (The Wrath & the Dawn, #2)
Synopsis:The darker the sky, the brighter the stars.

In a land on the brink of war, Shahrzad is forced from the arms of her beloved husband, the Caliph of Khorasan. She once thought Khalid a monster—a merciless killer of wives, responsible for immeasurable heartache and pain—but as she unraveled his secrets, she found instead an extraordinary man and a love she could not deny. Still, a curse threatens to keep Shazi and Khalid apart forever.

Now she’s reunited with her family, who have found refuge in the desert, where a deadly force is gathering against Khalid—a force set on destroying his empire and commanded by Shazi’s spurned childhood sweetheart. Trapped between loyalties to those she loves, the only thing Shazi can do is act. Using the burgeoning magic within her as a guide, she strikes out on her own to end both this terrible curse and the brewing war once and for all. But to do it, she must evade enemies of her own to stay alive.

The saga that began with The Wrath and the Dawn takes its final turn as Shahrzad risks everything to find her way back to her one true love again.
 

Why it's on this list: Because this was everything I wanted from TW&TD sequel and more. See, I liked TW&TD but I LOVED ROSE. Because their was something so magical about it, that I couldn't put it down. I read it at every single possible free moment. (Most of it being read during a shift at work. Muhahahah. It's that good. The magic. The characters. The world. The dynamics. Everything was perfect, to me.

More Happy than Not by Adam Silvera 2015

More Happy Than Not
Synopsis: In his twisty, gritty, profoundly moving debut—called “mandatory reading” by the New York Times—Adam Silvera brings to life a charged, dangerous near-future summer in the Bronx.

In the months after his father's suicide, it's been tough for 16-year-old Aaron Soto to find happiness again--but he's still gunning for it. With the support of his girlfriend Genevieve and his overworked mom, he's slowly remembering what that might feel like. But grief and the smile-shaped scar on his wrist prevent him from forgetting completely.

When Genevieve leaves for a couple of weeks, Aaron spends all his time hanging out with this new guy, Thomas. Aaron's crew notices, and they're not exactly thrilled. But Aaron can't deny the happiness Thomas brings or how Thomas makes him feel safe from himself, despite the tensions their friendship is stirring with his girlfriend and friends. Since Aaron can't stay away from Thomas or turn off his newfound feelings for him, he considers turning to the Leteo Institute's revolutionary memory-alteration procedure to straighten himself out, even if it means forgetting who he truly is.

Why does happiness have to be so hard?

Why it's on this list: If you have to ask yourself this question. Go out and buy this book immediately. Go on... I'll wait. Then come back and read this. Okay? Now that you understand, this book broke my heart. Not into a million little pieces. But into mismatched shards of glass. This book took what my heart once was, tore it up bit by bit, and threw it into a meat grinder, cooked it on a grill, went through someone's digestive system, then was stomped on by grape stompers, processed so it looked like a heart, but instead gummy form. And then it was lit on fire. Okay, so I might be exaggerating a little bit, but my love for this book knows no bounds. As I've said before... Required Reading.


Seven Ways We Lie by Riley Redgate 2016
Seven Ways We Lie
Synopsis: Seven students. Seven (deadly) sins. One secret.

Paloma High School is ordinary by anyone’s standards. It’s got the same cliques, the same prejudices, the same suspect cafeteria food. And like every high school, every student has something to hide—from Kat, the thespian who conceals her trust issues onstage, to Valentine, the neurotic genius who’s planted the seed of a school scandal.

When that scandal bubbles over, and rumors of a teacher-student affair surface, everyone starts hunting for someone to blame. For the seven unlikely allies at the heart of it all, the collision of their seven ordinary-seeming lives results in extraordinary change.

Why it's on this list: It's underrated as hell. Because I love it. Yay for pansexual rep, and aromantic rep, and for the diversity of this book. And for the fucking phenomenal writing. And for everything this book is. And for the fact that Riley is hilarious and this book is just the best thing. I feel lucky to have read it so early.

Beyond the Red by Ava Jae 2016
Beyond the Red (Beyond the Red, #1)
Synopsis: A story of betrayal, love, and loss—all on a technologically advanced alien planet where monarchy reigns, but lies rule.Alien queen Kora has a problem as vast as the endless crimson deserts. She’s the first female ruler of her territory in generations, but her people are rioting and call for her violent younger twin brother to take the throne. Despite assassination attempts, a mounting uprising of nomadic human rebels, and pressure to find a mate to help her rule, she’s determined to protect her people from her brother’s would-be tyrannical rule.

Eros is a rebel soldier hated by aliens and human alike for being a half-blood. But that doesn’t stop him from defending his people—at least until Kora’s soldiers raze his camp and take him captive. He is given an ultimatum: be an enslaved bodyguard to Kora, or be executed for his true identity—a secret kept even from him.

When Kora and Eros are framed for the attempted assassination of her betrothed, they flee. Their only chance of survival is to turn themselves in to the high court, where revealing Eros’s secret could mean a swift public execution. But when they uncover a violent plot to end the human insurgency, they must find a way to work together to prevent genocide

Why it's on this list: Because I loved this book so much. And was blown away by the addictive writing, the well-paced adventure, and the slow-burn of a romance. Because I loved Eros. And I admired Kora and her strength. I just loved so much about this book, and I want to read it again and again and again. The sequel, Into the Black has become one of my most anticipated releases of 2017. This book deserves more love, you guys. Please, for the love of god, read it.

Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe by Benjamin Alire Saenz
Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe
Synopsis: Aristotle is an angry teen with a brother in prison. Dante is a know-it-all who has an unusual way of looking at the world. When the two meet at the swimming pool, they seem to have nothing in common. But as the loners start spending time together, they discover that they share a special friendship—the kind that changes lives and lasts a lifetime. And it is through this friendship that Ari and Dante will learn the most important truths about themselves and the kind of people they want to be. 
Why it's on this list: Well, because I didn't read it sooner because I am a stupid human being who didn't know what he was doing with his life. Ari and Dante are real and this book is so poetic and gorgeous. And I loved it. And it's a gaaaaay book. But you all know that. And I looooove it sooo much. Yeeeee.

The Sun is Also A Star 2016
The Sun Is Also a Star
Synopsis: Natasha: I’m a girl who believes in science and facts. Not fate. Not destiny. Or dreams that will never come true. I’m definitely not the kind of girl who meets a cute boy on a crowded New York City street and falls in love with him. Not when my family is twelve hours away from being deported to Jamaica. Falling in love with him won’t be my story.

Daniel: I’ve always been the good son, the good student, living up to my parents’ high expectations. Never the poet. Or the dreamer. But when I see her, I forget about all that. Something about Natasha makes me think that fate has something much more extraordinary in store—for both of us.

The Universe: Every moment in our lives has brought us to this single moment. A million futures lie before us. Which one will come true?

Why it's on this list: Because it's simply a constellation-worthy love story that will make you believe at love at first sight once again. Because this book made me feel as if I could be in this situation, even though that's not even a possible thing because I'm white. But that's how beautifully raw and truthful it is. It can make you feel something you could never experience. And that's what's so special about this book. That it can make you feel like this. I adore this book with all my heart.

The Girl From Everywhere by Heidi Heilig 2016
The Girl from Everywhere (The Girl from Everywhere, #1)
Synopsis: Nix has spent her entire life aboard her father’s ship, sailing across the centuries, across the world, across myth and imagination.

As long as her father has a map for it, he can sail to any time, any place, real or imagined: nineteenth-century China, the land from One Thousand and One Nights, a mythic version of Africa. Along the way they have found crewmates and friends, and even a disarming thief who could come to mean much more to Nix.

But the end to it all looms closer every day.

Her father is obsessed with obtaining the one map, 1868 Honolulu, that could take him back to his lost love, Nix’s mother. Even though getting it—and going there—could erase Nix’s very existence.

For the first time, Nix is entering unknown waters.

She could find herself, find her family, find her own fantastical ability, her own epic love.

Or she could disappear.

Why it's on this list: Because it wouldn't be complete without this book here. Heidi Heilig writes phenomenally, this much is clear. And her time-travel rules are so different than any other book I've read. Honestly, I didn't know about this book for the longest time... then I got an ARC through a big giveaway... and didn't read it until a little before it's release. I HATE MYSELF FOR THIS YOU GUYS. This book was unputdownable. So freaking good. (Also, I love Heidi with all of my heart)


The First Time She Drowned 2016
The First Time She Drowned
Synopsis: Cassie O’Malley has been trying to keep her head above water—literally and metaphorically—since birth. It’s been two and a half years since Cassie’s mother dumped her in a mental institution against her will, and now, at eighteen, Cassie is finally able to reclaim her life and enter the world on her own terms.

But freedom is a poor match against a lifetime of psychological damage. As Cassie plumbs the depths of her new surroundings, the startling truths she uncovers about her own family narrative make it impossible to cut the tethers of a tumultuous past. And when the unhealthy mother-daughter relationship that defined Cassie’s childhood and adolescence threatens to pull her under once again, Cassie must decide: whose version of history is real? And more important, whose life must she save?

A bold, literary story about the fragile complexities of mothers and daughters and learning to love oneself, The First Time She Drowned reminds us that we must dive deep into our pasts if we are ever to move forward.

Why it's on this list: Because it destroyed me and everything I am. Now this book is well written. Extremely well written. The writing is why this book is so magical. (Without being literally magical because there isn't any magic in this one, guys.) But like, Cassie is unforgettable and everything with her and her mother (the center of this book) kills me. The big reveal, murdered my feelings. And if you need a good cry, I recommend this book.

2017 Books
Caraval by Stephanie Garber
Caraval (Caraval, #1)
Synopsis: Whatever you've heard about Caraval, it doesn't compare to the reality. It's more than just a game or a performance. It's the closest you'll ever find to magic in this world . . . Welcome, welcome to Caraval—Stephanie Garber’s sweeping tale of two sisters who escape their ruthless father when they enter the dangerous intrigue of a legendary game.

Scarlett has never left the tiny island where she and her beloved sister, Tella, live with their powerful, and cruel, father. Now Scarlett’s father has arranged a marriage for her, and Scarlett thinks her dreams of seeing Caraval, the far-away, once-a-year performance where the audience participates in the show, are over.

But this year, Scarlett’s long-dreamt of invitation finally arrives. With the help of a mysterious sailor, Tella whisks Scarlett away to the show. Only, as soon as they arrive, Tella is kidnapped by Caraval’s mastermind organizer, Legend. It turns out that this season’s Caraval revolves around Tella, and whoever finds her first is the winner.

Scarlett has been told that everything that happens during Caraval is only an elaborate performance. But she nevertheless becomes enmeshed in a game of love, heartbreak, and magic with the other players in the game. And whether Caraval is real or not, she must find Tella before the five nights of the game are over, a dangerous domino effect of consequences is set off, and her sister disappears forever.  

Why it's on this list: Well, duh. Because it literally is magical. Because Tella was my favorite. Because the romance, gah kill me so perfect. Because the concept is perfection. This book that promises to be spectacular, lives up to the hype.


History is All You Left Me by Adam Silvera
History Is All You Left Me
Synopsis: When Griffin’s first love and ex-boyfriend, Theo, dies in a drowning accident, his universe implodes. Even though Theo had moved to California for college and started seeing Jackson, Griffin never doubted Theo would come back to him when the time was right. But now, the future he’s been imagining for himself has gone far off course.

To make things worse, the only person who truly understands his heartache is Jackson. But no matter how much they open up to each other, Griffin’s downward spiral continues. He’s losing himself in his obsessive compulsions and destructive choices, and the secrets he’s been keeping are tearing him apart.

If Griffin is ever to rebuild his future, he must first confront his history, every last heartbreaking piece in the puzzle of his life.
 

Why it's on this list: Adam Silvera knows how to hit me hard. So much so that he's on this list twice. Which is a hard thing to do as I generally have a rule for repeat authors in Top ___ lists, because otherwise all I would ever do would put the same authors again, and again, and again. But Silvera deserves it man. This book comes out on January 17th, and I want you all to preorder it immediately. A beautifully haunting portrait of grief and what it can do to a person. I can't wait to reread.

The Upside of Unrequited by Becky Albertalli
The Upside of Unrequited
Synopsis: Seventeen-year-old Molly Peskin-Suso knows all about unrequited love. No matter how many times her twin sister, Cassie, tells her to woman up, Molly can’t stomach the idea of rejection. So she’s careful. Fat girls always have to be careful.

Then a cute new girl enters Cassie’s orbit, and for the first time ever, Molly’s cynical twin is a lovesick mess. Meanwhile, Molly's totally not dying of loneliness—except for the part where she is. Luckily, Cassie's new girlfriend comes with a cute hipster-boy sidekick. If Molly can win him over, she'll get her first kiss and she'll get her twin back.

There's only one problem: Molly's coworker, Reid. He's a chubby Tolkien superfan with a season pass to the Ren Faire, and there's absolutely no way Molly could fall for him.

Right?

Why it's on this list: Last on this list here, but certainly not least... Because it's Becky Albertalli and her writing speaks to me. And she's my favorite author. And my favorite person. And the Oreo Goddess. (Queen of the Oreos?) But my love for Becky aside, I loved this book for a few things: It's utter nerdiness. It's inclusion of a lesbian couple, and diversity in general. A fat, jewish MC. Thank you for that. Especially, for me, the fat part. The raw emotion expressed could only be truly expressed by someone who knows how it feels to be fat. And my god, I understood it all. And cried. And then I loved it even more because Molly is just so damn wonderful. And the boy. THE BOY. Nerdy level maxed out and I loved it. And the little cameo from Simon. If you are afraid you won't like this after the amazingness that is Simon, don't. You will. I guarantee it.



Here we are! The end of my list! What did  you think? See any of your favorite books on this list? I'd love to see your top books from 2016!

- Cody Roecker

Roecker Reviews <3

Thursday, January 5, 2017

A change is upon us (A small little text post on the year to come)



Hey guys. Cody here! (I mean, really, I'm pretty much the only one that blogs here besides a few posts from Jenna or Annelise once in a blue moon) I just thought I'd talk to you guys today.

I wanted to reflect on 2016 a little bit, and how far I have come this year. I could never thank any of you as deeply as I need to, but each and every one of you. If you are reading this now, thank you. If we've talked on twitter, Instagram, goodreads, or however else we've met, thank you.

Thank you for allowing me to be a part of this community. Thank you for being such a welcoming force, and such beautiful people. I am so thankful for the array of personalities I've met this last year. I'm thankful for the authorial and publishing connections I've met. I'm in the acknowledgments of a book y'all. And that means EVERYTHING to me.

Thank you to all the lovely twitter folk who I get to gush about books with. For those standing strong in the political climate we live in today. To those fighting for everything they believe in. I love you all. I cherish our friendship. I cherish everything that this is.

As you've probably noticed, I haven't been as present on my blog as per usual. My WoW have been posting, which I set up back in August, but then haven't looked at in months. They have been lacking in my usual "this is why I'm excited" and I sincerely apologize for my lack of presence here... But let me tell you guys:

College is time consuming.

As you may remember, I am attending Webster University (in St. Louis, MO) and am studying English with emphasis in Creative Writing with a second major in Dramaturgy (which is Theatre Studies, basically the research that goes behind the productions of the show. They are practically the "know-it-all people." And I'm so excited for that.

With that being said, I am so busy. And it's really hard to continue doing this, even if I would like to.

This is probably where you would expect me to be saying goodbye or something, but fear not!

I'm here to say. But, continuing from last year... I won't be as active as I would like. I will still do some WoW posts (hopefully with my usual flair) and I plan on keeping up with book reviews.

But my main focus of this blog, might shift a little with this upcoming year. One of my new years resolutions is to ACTUALLY WRITE.

I have done pretty well so far this year, and I'm going to continue.

I am going to write a book this year. Or maybe two books. Even super short first drafts. But they are going to happen. I have many ideas, but I haven't been putting my time and energy into it like I would like.

But by the end of May I plan to have written my MG novel. Hopefully. And by the end of the year I want to have made some serious headway on my YA novel. Details to come on those (maybe) once I get some solid thoughts down on paper and more than the 15k I have on my YA novel at this point.

The point is... I'm going to talk about writing more this year.

I'm not going to be reading as much. Hence why I set my reading goal on Goodreads to 35 books. I will read more than that. But, I'm limiting myself to that UNTIL I finish writing my books that I want to. Writing is my dream, and my passion. And this has to happen. I'd love to have an agent/publishing deal by the time I graduate college. Achievable? Entirely. That's why I'm starting now.

And I believe I can do this.

If you read all of this, thank you. I love you. And I'm so glad I know you.

With all the love in the world,

Cody Roecker

Roecker Reviews

Wednesday, January 4, 2017

Waiting on Wednesday #33

Ronit & Jamil

February 21st, 2017

A weekly meme hosted by Breaking the Spine where we post our most anticipated releases!

Monday, January 2, 2017

Every Last Word by Tamara Ireland Stone

Every Last Word
Title: Every Last Word
Author: Tamara Ireland Stone
Page Count: 368
Genre: Young Adult Contemporary, OCD,
Rating: 4.25 Stars
Source: My friend Elizabeth :)
Publisher: Disney Hyperion
Buy Links: Goodreads IndieBound Amazon Barnes & Noble
Synopsis: If you could read my mind, you wouldn't be smiling.

Samantha McAllister looks just like the rest of the popular girls in her junior class. But hidden beneath the straightened hair and expertly applied makeup is a secret that her friends would never understand: Sam has Purely-Obsessional OCD and is consumed by a stream of dark thoughts and worries that she can't turn off.

Second-guessing every move, thought, and word makes daily life a struggle, and it doesn't help that her lifelong friends will turn toxic at the first sign of a wrong outfit, wrong lunch, or wrong crush. Yet Sam knows she'd be truly crazy to leave the protection of the most popular girls in school. So when Sam meets Caroline, she has to keep her new friend with a refreshing sense of humor and no style a secret, right up there with Sam's weekly visits to her psychiatrist.

Caroline introduces Sam to Poet's Corner, a hidden room and a tight-knit group of misfits who have been ignored by the school at large. Sam is drawn to them immediately, especially a guitar-playing guy with a talent for verse, and starts to discover a whole new side of herself. Slowly, she begins to feel more "normal" than she ever has as part of the popular crowd . . . until she finds a new reason to question her sanity and all she holds dear.
 

Initial thoughts: Oh my god. love this book. so damn much. words cannot express. left me speechless. everyone must read. every last word. this damn book. you will love. I assure you.


Full Review:

Question: How do I begin talking about a book that moved me as much as this book did?

Answer: It will be difficult.

Question: So, Cody... what was it about this book that made you love it so much?

Answer: Well, this is going to be a long winded answer. Initially, I was only intrigued in the book because it features a main character that lives with OCD, and I was interested to see how she coped with the disorder. As it continued my emotions intertwined with Sam's. So much so that I had to set the book down multiple times because I just couldn't handle myself.

This book is a wholly emotional depiction of a very serious disorder. And Tamara handled it with such care and caution, in order to really show a real story that not only felt real, but screamed real.

I loved this book because of how Tamara not only incorporated how Sam dealt with her OCD, but also the poetry incorporated throughout. It really made this book shine.

I spent a large amount of the novel, a little frustrated at something that I predicted in the novel. The romance can be seen from a mile away... and although I grew to like it... I was very much worried that it would end up being a "romanticizing mental illness" situation, and that is my least favorite thing in novels. Every once in awhile, if the characters have romantic interests but it doesn't magically fix their issues, then I am okay with it. This book is the case. (That jumble of thoughts was little confusing, but I hope you catch my drift here)

Anyways, I did like the romance, once it got into it. I did think it was a little quick, but I've become numb to those kind of things now. Besides... that is not even remotely the main part of the book.

The book follows Samantha McAllister and how she navigates high school with OCD and hiding it from her "best friends" who are dubbed the "Crazy Eights". They are basically Mean Girls to the extreme, and while I strongly disliked them, I never hated any of them... (okay, maybe one of them... I'm looking at you Kaitlyn. God, she bothered me to no end)

Anyways, Sam meets this girl named Caroline and gets introduced to Poet's Corner, and in an instant, her life is changed. She begins writing poetry, with Caroline's help. The nuances of this book are absolutely phenomenal.

I wasn't in love love with this book until about 75% in when we get to the big twist... AHHH. I FREAKED OUT. IT WAS AMAZING. IT CHANGED EVERYTHING FOR ME. Like, I was enjoying it. And the writing is phenomenal. But their was something missing to really allow it to stand out from a YA line up in regards to about mental illnesses. SO THIS TWIST REALLY DID EVERYTHING I WANTED IT TO.

Everything about said twist made sense and it made me want to go back and reread the entire book to see the very subtle foreshadowing.

Sue was a phenomenal character and the scenes between her and Sam read the most realistic and you could definitely tell that Stone put so much effort into the planning and writing of this book. I wholeheartedly appreciate everything that made this book what it is.

And what it is, is absolutely breathtaking.

Also, I did a thing with the titles. Looked at them, wrote them all down in order to see if they made a poem...and in a very abstract way... they did. But, I'm planning on putting them in my own order soon, and will be showing y'all that soon!

Overall:

Tamara Ireland Stone's novel Every Last Word was an honest depiction of OCD and how it can affect a person. I loved the familial dynamics, I loved her interactions with her psychologist/therapist. I loved the message behind this book. That's why I love this book. Because it really conveys a powerful and wholly wonderful message that we will all be better because of. Highly recommend. I will be buying myself my own copy ASAP.